grief

Desperate for a Glimpse

November 25, 2017

The holidays are here again, and while some are celebrating, others are desperate for just a glimpse of a loved one. As we gathered at my in-laws’ home for Thanksgiving this year, I was keenly aware of our loss. The deep ache of losing our 3-year-old (almost 10 years ago) has not healed with time. … Read moreDesperate for a Glimpse

Do You See Me? He whispered

March 5, 2016

In the quiet stillness of dawn, I sat on a bench. My breath blew puffs of steam over my coffee. The sky was red as the birds sang in the morning. Every now and then something would stir in the lake and ripple the water. As I prayed, divine peace settled over me like the blanket … Read moreDo You See Me? He whispered

Is Your Soul in the “Abode of Silence”?

January 18, 2016

Sometimes life throws us into the “abode of silence.” When unexplainable things happen, it can feel like you are all alone. As a grieving mom, I have come to accept these hours or days when losing Austin is simply too much to bear. There are days when my soul feels like this picture – dark, silent, alone … Read moreIs Your Soul in the “Abode of Silence”?

Can You See Him?

July 12, 2015

This picture was taken when Devin and I packed an 18-month-old Ethan into our car and “ran away from home.” About 6 months after Austin died, we desperately needed time off work.  We ran away.  Literally. We had no idea where we were going.  We had no plans, no GPS system, no hotel reservations, no agenda.  We … Read moreCan You See Him?

Are You “Not Quite Right”?

May 12, 2015

The coffee bin in this picture is not quite right.  The lid that is supposed to keep our coffee air tight doesn’t quite get the job done.  Why don’t I buy a new one?  Because … before Austin died, he snuck this item into the grocery cart one day. When I asked him about it, … Read moreAre You “Not Quite Right”?

What Would You Choose ~ Wisdom or Wealth?

April 9, 2015

   Can you imagine someone offering you this choice: two uninterrupted hours with your Bible or a handful of jewels?  Which would you choose? For a very long time, the pursuit of wealth dominated my life.  I wasn’t really striving for jewels, or fancy cars, or even a house in Scottsdale, but rather for financial security.  I was … Read moreWhat Would You Choose ~ Wisdom or Wealth?

How You Can Choose Faith, Not Fear

March 31, 2015

This picture is our son, Ethan, during the summer when he was five.  You can’t tell by the picture how high he is, but let this Mom tell you that my heart was racing.  It was a little bit dangerous. But…I let him climb.  And…I prayed.  Since we lost Austin to something as mundane as strep … Read moreHow You Can Choose Faith, Not Fear

3 Ideas to Avoid the Mess that Hurry Makes

March 25, 2015

Is this how you feel most days?  Like you must run at super-human speed, racing through your day to get everything done that needs doing?  I sure do.  As soon as my eyes open, my brain starts trying to figure out how many things I can get done and in what order. The other day, … Read more3 Ideas to Avoid the Mess that Hurry Makes

3 Ideas to Help You Grab Gratitude and Push Out Pain

March 23, 2015

This is Austin Lee the day before his 3rd birthday.  He picked out his birthday cake and made it mostly by himself…cracking the eggs and everything!  I helped a little, of course, but he really tackled it.  He was way too mature for his age.  I am grateful now for his maturity because it allowed us to … Read more3 Ideas to Help You Grab Gratitude and Push Out Pain

Mighty Monday ~ What to do When Life Gives You a Sucker Punch ~ Part 1

March 16, 2015

This is a picture of me being goofy at our family reunion last summer.  The question I get asked most often is, “how do you do it?”  You see, at this reunion we would be missing my brother, Jeff, who died in a car accident in 1989, when he was 23.  And, more recently, in 2008, … Read moreMighty Monday ~ What to do When Life Gives You a Sucker Punch ~ Part 1